Wish to have more POWER

I always worry or scare on something new to me. I always lack of brave to fight the things i need, fight to get the things i wish to have. I always do not have enough confident to do everything. These are my weak points. I really wish to overcome all these to make myself more powerful to handle my life.


Wish to ask HOW? Anyone can teach me how to gain more brave? how to gain more confident? How ? How?
These obstacles are blocked me many months already. I really wish to change, wish to jump over those obstacles to another step of life.. 


By Keep thinking HOW to become More CONFIDENT, BRAVE, POWER - Lawins

人不应只看一面

我发现，其实，我们不应只看人的一面。。何谓一面呢？我说的一面是我们不应只听一个人的片面之词，应该听各有关人士的话语，才裁判到底是谁对谁错，不应太早下定论。。

我曾经因为只听甲的comment，然后就断定是乙的错，后来才发现原来不是这样的，也因此而误会了乙。我也曾经被人因此也误会了我。所以呢，有时候，不应只听一人的话，就做出决定，可想想，甲也未必知道整件事情的来龙去脉，他也有可能只是可旁听者。。。

我真不想自己被人这样误会，也不想自己因这样去误会别人。。

朋友，是应该多点信任，适当的关心，适当的关怀。如果他只是初犯，我们就不认他做朋友，未免太绝了！身边多个朋友，好过多个敌人。。

苦中作乐

在这很忙碌的时候，偷偷地拿了些时间，在这里留话，轻松一下。。。

不知不觉的，三个月就快要过去了。。。大概应该很多人都懂我再说什么吧！ =）
对了，就是我的健康瘦身program，还有几天就功成身退了！ 哈哈！
超开心的。。


想呀想，越想就越开心，一想到以后不需要减肥了，你说是不是很开心啊？！
更开心的是，我可以帮身边的朋友，这是更加的开心。助人为快乐之本嘛。。。

好了，是时候，再继续看看我的工作，然后就要睡觉.


迎接美好的明天 -- 丽雯 --

忐忑不安

不懂我为何今天又一种说不出的心情。。忐忑不安。。究竟是为什么？！
今天我也很懒惰做工哦！！！很想跟现在的天气一样， 懒懒地过一天。。可以吗？！
再过两天就是圣诞节了。。但是，我还是感觉不到圣诞节的气氛。。。公司个个忙碌的工作，每年的圣诞节dinner和交换礼物活动，今年都没有。。。很闷叻整间公司。。
好想跑去痛痛快快的唱K，舒缓一下心情。。。
希望我的心情可以快点好起来。。。


Cheers up!!! LM ~ ~

Today feeling

This evening went to Saloon Kimarie to do a digital perm for curly hair treatment. At the beginning, thought it'll be nice and it'll a hair style that I can accept, I like. But after all done, I had shocked.. I thought I already mentioned I don't want too curly to the girl that doing my hair treatment. Never think that the result is like this. The hair style make my face looks more older, more mature... Kek sei...

After I think about it, may b not her fault. She keep saying that this kind of curly is nice for me, and is suit for me, cos I have less hair... This kind of curly hair will make me seems like got lot of hair... Anyway, hopefully after wash hair, the hair will not so curly, n become normal curly hair...

I think I will go dying my hair, so hopefully my hair will look nicer than now. And I'll looking for hair tighting styles, so that I can tight up my hair nicely...
Hahahaha.....

A weird experience.. Can't say I'm sad, but just a bit cant accept my new hair style.. I will remember what had happened today - 20100129 - Friday.

Trying to accept new hair style now.... -- LM --

痛苦的Sunday 20091213

Today supposed is a wonderful day for me. I supposed to go to meet my mum at Cheras now, then teman her until tonight. But..but.. last night after I attended Eddy's wedding dinner, reached home, my left wisdom tooth started to feel pain, and I can feel my whole left wisdom tooth is swollen (bengkak). I try to sleep, but the pain make me hard to sleep. Fortunately, I still can sleep for few hours. At the beginning, I thought the pain will over after sleep. But, I felt more painful at this morning after I woke up. T_T

I can't tahan the pain. The swollen area of my wisdom tooth make me totally cant eat. Drink water become a very hard action for me. So, I faster browse through internet to get those dental which is opened today around my place. After get few, haven a simple milk breakfast, my dear fetch me go find those dental clinics. At this difficult moment, very thanks to Sim Ying, my best friend, who keep helping me to find where else got the dental center is open today. After almost 1 hour finding around here and there, finally I get a dental at PJ New Town. Thanks God!

Within 10 mins check up, the doctor said my wisdom tooth is under inflammation. At this moment, he cant do anything on it, because it will bring more pain to me. He just can give me pain killer and antibiotic to consume to reduce the pain. I think the pain killer is not strong medicine, after I consume it, it does not reduce the pain immediately, but after 2 hours. Now, after dinner, I consume 2nd times of the pain killer, but dont know y my wisdom tooth felt pain again. My mouth cannot close properly. Blessing now. Wish it gonna be alright after I consume 3rd time of the pain killer.

And hopefully tomorrow it wont feel so pain anymore..

Blessing now - LM -

Form6的那2年

突然之间想起我form6的那2年，那2年发生了很多事，有快乐的，有悲伤的！我还记得我因为一件事，而去剪头发，剪了一头很难看的发行。

第一年，我和一个拍拖3个月的男朋友分手了。在我伤心的时候，他一直陪伴着我，逗我开心，帮我忘记分手的痛。我们虽然没有时常见面，但有时都会传简讯沟通，联络。过了一段时间，有可能是日久生情吧，我开始喜欢上他了。我没有勇气说出口，因担心说出了，如果失败，有可能就没了这朋友。所以我都一直隐藏我的心。

一直到第二年的情人节，他虽然没有约我出去，但他竟然买了一个将近150cm的snoopy公仔，拿到来我家，把它送给我。他那时候因为运动后很累，只说了几句话就走了。那天，我才知道原来他也是喜欢我的。过了那天，我还以为他会找机会跟我讲清楚，但是却没有。我也不知都为何自己却没有勇气去问他，我们俩的关系。就这样，我们拖了半年，一点进展也没有。

在8月最后一个礼拜的某个晚上，刚巧我一位男性好朋友在我家复试功课，他打了电话给我，说很想我陪他出去走走，吃宵夜。我那个时候，“重色轻友”，就答应了他，然后叫我那好朋友回家去。怎么知道他人已在我家外面，看到了我那男性好朋友从我家走出来，就这样，他就驾车走了。我打电话给他，他不接。我很怕他误会，很想和他解释，就传简讯给他说个清楚，但他只回复我 - “不吃了，我很累，我想回家”。什么也没说。

过了几天，我既然在街上看到他拖着一位女生的手，那女生我也认识的。在没有预料之下，我无法接受这事实。我心崩溃了，心碎了，心有说不出的痛。我强忍着眼泪，回到家去。在家，我眼泪不受我控制，不停地掉下来。我一直问自己，为什么？他不是前几天才要找我出去吗？为什么所有一切会在几天后且然不同。我不明白，也不甘心。

过了一天，我鼓起勇气，打电话给他，他不接，我就传简讯。 最后我得到的答案竟然是-“事情都已经发生了，现在即使你知道当中的理由，又有何用呢？” 看到这一句，我的心真的很痛。为什么他不能告诉我原因？这个答案也是我到现在都很想知道的。虽然那个答案，那个原因，那个理由有可能我知道了会很难过，但至少我知道，总好过我不知道。

自从他拍拖之后，我们也没有见面了，我和他也变得相似陌生人一样，再也没有联络。也因为发生了这件事，我心想剪头发，换个新面貌，从新出发。怎知道，我却剪了一头难看的头发，还我那一年都不敢拍照。

写这一遍，只是要把这以前不开心的事，从我心中拿走。。
现在我有一个很好的男朋友，对我很好，很照顾我。我会很珍惜这一切。很珍惜眼前人。。
看将来，不要再记得不开心的事了！

加油！ 丽雯

Motivation For Me

Today I felt very happy as I got a very good news from my Company. It can be a strong motivation for me to keep going in my work life. Thanks to my Boss. But from another point of view, I think I have to work more harder, will have to get more works to do compare to now. As my company is growing now and try to archive more, to become medium Company. No matter how, I wish I can get my MCP certificate as soon as possible, and learn more in this exam. Wish to learn new thing in Company lo.. =)

阴天。雨天

好喜欢今天的天气哦！凉凉的风吹进我房间，吹向我， 好舒服！让我好想去旅行，好好得休息下！
突然间发现我有好多事想做叻！

1. MCP 考试
2. continue learn on PhotoShop
3. learn back JAVA programming language
4. 买 handphone
5. 减肥
6. 买车
7. Savings
8. 。。。

虽然这些都好像很容易做到，但我已经拖延一年了。 希望我真的可以做到吧！
讲到减肥，我每次都持续不到两个月。有谁可以告诉我，要怎样才不会放弃呢？

LaiMun, 你要加油啊！不要放弃！
我觉得应该找出一张我最难看的照片，放大，放在我时常见到的地方，这样应该可以提醒自己吧！ 哈哈！ =)